Monday, December 04, 2006
my bwc friend
because my life's been strange lately, i've taken things a bit 'on the chin' and now have upset/angered/whatever'd my bwc friend. i've been retreating, not really doing much online of late because of all that seems to swirl about me lately. my cousin's wife has been released home - my worry about my cousin has increased as he tries to do more than one person probably can. my mom's best friend - my 'second mom' - was diagnosed last week with cancerous tumors on her liver. not good at all. so add a bit of additional concern for my mom & her friend - and her family. (ok, add a lot) kel had her first real date this past weekend - so we discussed & discussed if she should be allowed to go because of her schoolwork, because of the weather, becausebecausebecause. my ex-sil had 24 mini strokes ... my niece & her family will be here in 10 days & i'm so not ready. tom's son & his family may be here at the holidays - may not, since he lost his job, went off the wagon, lives 8 hours away. tom's niece has gotten quite mouthy (not unusual) about her impending move into her mother's house and what tom's behavior & actions "should" be. everyone wants to be together for christmas but almost everyone is complaining/whining about money. and on and on and on ... and while it's a lot of stuff i can't directly affect, it has it's affect on me. i want off my antidepressant 'cause i'm tired of weighing a zillion pounds & waddling everywhere ... so i've cut it back even further. will it be a wise move? who knows ...
oh, anyway ... i didn't intend to hurt my bwc/f's feelings, which is probably what i did. i'm sorry!